To the Big Man Upstairs,

It’s been a long road, and I’ve been waiting for this moment: getting my life back. Tomorrow, August 24, 2021, I go under the knife, where my spine will be realigned and refused. The surgeon predicted it will take twelve to fourteen hours to complete. There will be three surgeons in the operating room working on me.

As terrified as I am, I can’t wait to get my life back. It feels like I haven’t been living, just surviving. I will do whatever it takes to get better. I’ve made a list of all the things I want to do after surgery, including traveling, going to a shooting range, and getting my nose pierced. I have goals I want to accomplish, including continuing to write books, as well as children’s books, continuing to do art, and making my first book into an audiobook.

I want to live my life to the fullest, and the only way to do that is undergoing this surgery. It can only go up from here, and I keep reminding myself this. My surgeon told me, the only person who will know if the paralysis will get worse is you.

I have faith that you will be watching over me. I promise I will continue to create, and use my voice to advocate.

Please, take care of me, ensuring everything goes well. I’m looking at this surgery as a rebirth, a second chance at life. My surgeon warned me that the first three months of this recovery will be brutal. It will take a year to know the full outcome.

I don’t ask for much, and I need your support. Please, watch over me. I will do everything I can to keep my head up and stay positive. I promise you I will take care of my mental health, and speak up for what I need.

I’m not giving up this fight; it can only go up from here.

If you help me, I promise you I will live my life to the fullest, and use my gifts, the creative arts, to better the world. I will bust my ass to be the best version of myself. In my eyes, losing is not an option.

I’m ready to start the next chapter of my life. The sky is the limit, and I can’t wait to see what’s in store for me. I’m not giving up. I’m determined and ready for this. I’ve already accepted this challenge, and ready to give it my all.

Thank you for watching over me, and making sure I’m okay. I’m trusting you.

Love,

Tracy